Why I Went Low-Carb

I’m fat. I was the kind of fat that you look at when you walk down the street and lowly-spit into your best friend’s ear, “Kill me if I get like that”. I’m was the kind of fat that has trouble walking upstairs, fitting into airplane seats, or going to a movie theater. I was breaking toilet seats with my ass fat. I was toddler-crushing-gut, pendulum-breasts, sweat-that-smells-like-Cheetos fat. And I was hungry.

I had been doing a low-fat, low-calorie diet for as ten years. I have been starving myself on a diet of 1200 calories that did not power my humongous frame, which by all rights would need 3000 calories to sustain my weight.  I was eating the required servings of fruits, veggies, and whole-grains and nothing was happening.  I was getting much, much fatter. I was hungry. I was tired.

General practitioners, specialists, and nutritionists refused to believe me when I brought in my meticulously kept records of what I was eating. The meticulously weighted portion sizes and carefully calculated math to document self-starvation was obviously inaccurate because look at me! This can’t be right! I did not fit into the calories-in and calories-out math that dominates the scientific literature, so I must be lying. I was told to lay off the ice cream, eat more whole grains, cut back calories more.

I was also sick.  My gallbladder hurt.  I had acid reflux and would often vomit several times a day.  My left ankle was in constant pain. I lived off tums and Aleve. I was given acid reducing medication and advice to eat much less and most importantly, much less fat.

Then finally, I saw a nutritionist who actually listened to me.  Crazily enough she told me that if what I was doing wasn’t working, I should stop.  She told me that carbs matter and to stop this crazy low-fat diet train. I was to eat meat, fresh veggies, fruit, and high-fat dairy and as much as I wanted. She told me I didn’t have to painstakingly track everything I was eating and to just abide by her guidelines. I was to pay attention to how my body felt, feed it when it was hungry, move when I had energy, sleep when I was tired, and to drink when I was thirsty.

This was mind boggling!  For the first few days, I was racked by horrible guilt over what I was doing.  How could I, queen fat-ass, actually go to a grocery story and purchase heavy cream, cheese, beef, and butter. How could I give up weighing and tracking everything I ate? It was a security blanket that helped me prove to myself that this wasn’t my fault.

But I did it. I lost 20 pounds in the first three weeks. My ankle pain and migraines disappeared and my energy levels went through the roof.  I was eating food with fat and my gallbladder wasn’t aching. My acid reflux vanished and I stopped vomiting. And I wasn’t hungry.

This is why I went low-carb.



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6 responses to “Why I Went Low-Carb

  1. I was you.

    I had a gastric bypass in 09. I started my journey at 450 pounds. I was dying. My obesity was killing me.

    After I had the surgery my surgeon says ok, now you need to eat low carb the rest of your life. I was shocked. I had done low carb before and lost thirty pounds in thirty days but couldn’t keep it off. I loved bread and popcorn. I had two sons to raise with no child support. Food was scarce so we ate as cheap as possible. Pasta, potatoes, bread, rice, all the carbs were cheaper.

    Now I eat low carb. I do cheat on occasion and I don’t beat myself up about it either. I just stop right then and there and eat low carb again. I make muffin in a minute for my bread. I make a slightly different version, sweetened for my cake. I make lots of substitutions and live a much healthier life.

    I am no longer taking blood sugar, blood pressure, or cholesterol meds. I went from a 5x down to a size sixteen tho soon i’ll be able to fit into a fourteen. This is not entirely due to my gastric bypass. It normally only works for about six months to a year. I am still able to lose weight even tho it’s been over two years. It’s due to eating low carb.

    I wish you luck with this journey of yours. There will be setbacks. Know it and when it happens you just deal with it and move on. It will not break you unless you let it, so don’t let it!!!!

    • lowcarbcookery1

      Thank you so much for your support! I knew there were people out there with my story and it saddens me that the medical community ignores so many of us. I sincerely appreciate that you took the time to read my story and comment.

  2. Love your blog!! Thank you for reading my post and the “Like”.

  3. I completely understand where you are coming from! Although I am not “morbidly obese” I have been stuck at a size 14-16 for more than a decade. I did the food log, low cal low fat thing FOREVER with no results. I starved my self to avoid getting any bigger. I am really good at maintaining but couldnt ever manage to lose more than a few pounds before I just put more on. I went to my doctor for something else entirely and ended up realizing and revealing while I was there that I was really depressed! The only thing we could point at for a reason was my weight and feeling of hopelessness. She gave me the same advice that you got. “Stop starving yourself, consume at least 3 times the calories that I had been taking in before(this terrified me). She had me eat only protein and green vegetables for three weeks to break all of my cravings. I lost more than a pound a day for that first week and I was sold! $ month later, I’m down almost 20 lbs and am never hungry! I still want Carb rich things sometimes but I realize that the sacrifice is far outweighed by the reward! I also no longer have nearly as much Acid Reflux trouble or headaches.

    Thanks for the delicious Peanut Butter Muffin recipe, that’s how I found your blog and my kitchen smells amazing right now! Paula Dean makes a Peanut Butter and Jelly Muffin that I was wanting to make, I used your recipe and put a small dollop of sugar free/added fiber blackberry preserves inside each one.
    Gotta go now, my oven timer just dinged and It’s time to try out this amazing creation. 😉

    • lowcarbcookery

      Thank you for reading and for sharing your story. I sometime want to eat things that I remember liking, like my sister’s amazing chocolate chip cookies, but I just think about how bad I would feel if I ate them. That usually takes care of the cravings.

      Enjoy the muffins! They are one of my favorite things to make. I think during berry season I might make my own sugar-free preserves and with my pressure cooker.

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